Life is getting a little better with each day :)
I am so thankful for that! No... life is surely not perfect... but it's improving enough for me to feel the slightest bit better daily.
I'm afraid of pointless things in life...that in the long run..do not even matter. I'm afraid to talk to people for the most part. It's hard for me to trust, but when i do...i trust to much.
I'm afraid of rejection, I'm afraid compliments-i tend to ALWAYS think they are being sarcastic..
If a guy hits on me i feel SO bad...because I tend to think it's a joke.
I don't know what's wrong with me >.<
I don't know HOW to begin to work on my self-image issues... no clue really.
but positives for the week so far are :
I no longer want to burst into tears when someone looks at me
We're BOTH working towards a happier/healthier relationship
and I'm smiling at the moment :)
I feel stronger and less dependent... too soon to say that? oh well.. the past two days I HAVE felt less dependent upon him. I try not to call/text him first. He broke up with me.. I need to give him space...right?
and in return he calls/texts me when he thinks of it...which sweet.
these blogs do not really flow, but thats ok!
this is more of a way for me to get out my emotions and how >I< am feeling.
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